I am having a liminal experience. I am in between two lives. The prior of which, I lacked any kind of worry about my future because I believed “everything will work its way out.” The future of which is when I graduate and finally have a job. During this liminal timeframe, I must realize what I wish to do with my life. I have placed myself in positions to achieve whatever I wish to do by having good grades and being active in campus activities, but the hard part seems to be deciding what I wish to do.
As each year of college progresses, I seem to gain a clearer idea as to what I wish to do with my life. Unfortunately this idea is still vague. As of right now I hope to do something in the areas of business or accounting. The fact that I have narrowed it to this is extremely impressive considering last year I had gone through the ideas of biology, political science and history. I can attribute this narrowing to my advisor who I saw over the past summer. I threw out several ideas as to what I may want to major, but he believed I’d be good at accounting. Eventually I gave in and agreed. It was a great decision on my part because I really enjoy it.
My liminal encounter will last longer than others. I plan on attending graduate school. The only problem is that I do not have the slightest idea as what I hope to do for it. I could go get an MBA, or I could get my masters of accounting and become a CPA. Other options include getting a PhD in accounting and possibly becoming a professor or get a JDMBA and become a business litigation attorney. I lack the answers to the end of my journey, but I hope my liminality will eventually lead me to them.
After reading this, I must express being in an uncannily similar "liminal" position to you, Travis. I'm tentatively doubling in accounting and history aimed at something like the business law route, but at the same time I question how fulfilling those careers would really be for me. The economist in me says get money get paid and then do what you want later once you're financially comfortable, but even this route I begin to find less appealing. The humanist in me tells me that I would be squandering a lifetime by only spending my time working only for my own self-betterment. I know that I could go off and do research and work to better the world, but even that might not work for me. Believe it or not, despite the fact that I believe our country's commitment to funding individual cars for everyone and not investing in public mass transit (a product of years of government lobbying by auto companies), I absolutely love cars. Maybe it's the materialist in me, but nothing is more fun or expressive for me as tuning and engine modification. Should I move out to California or Texas, take out a big fat loan to go to tuner school and start my own auto customization business? I know I could, and the allure of going off on an adventure appeals to me. Or do I take the safe route, go to law school or get an MBA and work in an office for the majority of my life. As I write this, I think you can tell where I'm leaning.
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